Justice League Porn Story: Winter Storm Chapter 10

I woke up early the next morning. I softly kissed Caspians lips,
getting up. He reached out, not wanting me to leave. He lifted his
head. He didnt say anything. It was like he was taking a moment to
stare at menot like there was anything to stare at, Ales, are
you okay?

I smirked, You dont have to babysit me. I was just going to
take a shower before I have to go shopping with Whisper and mom.

He chuckled, Id ask to join you, but we are not married. You
know

I laughed, Caspian, Im seventeen and youre.scratch that.

He moved quickly, embracing me. His lips crashed with mine. He
smirked into the kiss as he pushed me down on the bed. He brought his
hands to my cheeks, pulling me closer. I leaned into him, wrapping my
arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. He pushed himself back into
the wall, Im sorry, Ales. I dont have enough control. I
could kill you by kissing you and being with you so intimately.

I shrugged, We needed to stop anyway. Im not comfortable with
being so intimate. Ever since.you know.

He pulled me closer, but I quickly broke away, LookII should
shower.

I couldnt get out of there fast enough. I loved him. I knew that,
and I knew he loved me. But, I was still frightened by the prospect
of being so close to him. I didnt mind him holding me while we
slept or kissing me on occasion, but when it came to intimate
physical attraction, especially in my room, I didnt want it. My
reasons for that were clearly summed up by the nine letters carved
into my back. It defined me. I cried as the hot water of my shower
caressed my body. I was so tense, so frightened and ashamed. I felt
so alone. Even though we loved each other, I knew that I could never
surrender myself fully to him. I allowed the tears to fall. I cried
out in anguish and frustration as I brought the razor across my
wrists once more. I knew that I was pressing down so hard that some
of the scars wouldnt heal for at least a week, but in that moment
I didnt care. I cried out in pain, allowing the blood to run down
the drain.

I felt like I wasnt even in the world. I barely registered the
sound of my door opening. I felt the razor being pried from my strong
grip. I screamed as my control was taken from me. My vision was
blurred, but I hit the person holding me with vigor. I needed my
control back. I could control how far I went. I could control my
pain. I needed to have that, and it was being taken away. I screamed
and cried, trying to push this person away. I finally gave up,
passing out from blood loss.

I opened my eyes. I looked down to see gauze wrapped around my
wrists. I felt ashamed. I bit my lip, looking around to see where I
was. It was dark and cold. I knew instantly I was in the cave. I sat
up, feeling a bit dizzy, but none the worse for the wear. I was
quickly embraced my mother. Tears streamed down her face. I looked
away, knowing the shame she must feel.

Alessandra, Im so sorry. I failed you. I should have been
there. I shouldnt have let that happen to you. I should have
known. I should have., She stopped wiping away the tears from
her eyes, Alessandra, how could you do that? I cant lose you. I
buried one daughter. Please, dont make me lose another.

I looked away in shame at her words. This whole time, I had only
thought of my pain. I hadnt thought about how it would affect my
family, friends, or Caspian. I suddenly wondered where he was. I
looked around. He was asleep in the chair beside me. I could see that
he had been crying, and I only felt worse. I felt so bad about
cutting that I wanted to do it again. Then, I really felt shame when
I looked into the eyes of my father. I half-expected him to give me a
stern look and a speech. His eyes conveyed not anger or shame, but
guilt. He gently embraced me, careful not to touch my wrists.

Ales, he smiled as he called me by my name, Im sorry. I
brought Allison here. I thought if Diana and I couldnt have
anymore children, then I could at least adopt a daughter. I brought
Allison herea war orphan. I thought I could give her a better
life, but she still managed to get in with the wrong crowd. I loved
her, Ales. I really did. Then, your mother became pregnant. The
doctors said it was impossible, but you were born. I was so proud,
and your name reflects that. Martha: lady, Victoria: victory,
Alessandra: protector, Connor: desire. I was the happiest man in the
world, and then the doctors told me you were dying. I pleaded to
whoever would listen to spar your life. That night, Athena and Ares
came to me. Athena said that she could unlock the powers that you
held within, but Ares insisted that allowing you to live was cheating
him of a death. You life was saved at an expense. Ares said that you
would know suffering. Ales, if I had known, I never would have been
so selfish.

I felt my greatest fear coming true, So, you wish you had never
saved me. You wish that I was never born because of what happened to
me.

Ales, He gently placed a hand on my shoulder, I love you,
sweetheart. I want you here, but I regret making a decision like
that.

You regret my life, I laughed, You could never understand,
Dad. You regret living in a world without your parents were you
received nothing but care, a loving wife, and kids. Do you know what
I regret? I regret living in a world with loving parents who were too
blind to see the molestation right in front of them. I regret being
surrounded by the worlds greatest heroes, but not one of them
could save me. Father, you are blind when it comes to your family
life. Brendon is happy as a chef, and that means nothing to you.
Frank wants to be a designer, and you are ashamed as much as you
dont try to show it. You thought that Isaac was a good man. Hes
not. He may have acted like a brother to me and a nice boyfriend to
Allison. But, its all a lie! All of this is a lie!

He stepped back. I had never told him how I felt before, and now I
intended to speak my mind, We love each other and care for each
other, but we are not this perfect happy family. You cant give up
a promise that your parents never would have wanted you to make.
Dont get me wrong Dad, they would want you to protect the city
that they built, but they wouldnt want you to sacrifice your
family in the process. Youre either at the company, with Mom, or
out patrolling. The only way I get to see you is by going with you,
and as much as I like it, its not the life for me. I felt like I
didnt know you when I came home, but the truth is Ive never
really known you. All I wantall I want is for you to be proud of
me.

He looked away, You do a good job on patrols and with your
studies. Keep up the good work.

I felt like the tears were never going to stop when he walked away. I
felt so worthless. I felt like my worst nightmare was becoming a
reality. He was ashamed of me. He couldnt say it. He couldnt
say the only thing I had ever wanted. I wanted him to be proud of me.
My mother smiled, Alessandra, he has a hard time with that. He
never had parents to tell him that. When he tells you that youre
doing a good job, thats his way of saying that hes proud of
you.

I sighed, getting up, Lets go. Whisper wanted us to go
shopping. We should go.

I just wanted all of this to go away. The only thing I knew to do was
to run away. I always felt like I took two steps backwards for every
step forwards. I could say how I felt, but that didnt matter. My
father and I were the same in that aspect. We always say what we
feel, and then leave before anything can get resolved.

Alessandra, are you sure? She bit her lip out of nervous habit,
staring me down with her bright blue eyes.

Mother, I havent been fine in a long time. I wouldnt know,
I bit my lip, realizing that I had a lot in common with my mother as
I defensively put my hands on my hips taking the Wonder Woman
stance.

She only nodded, Just know whenever you need me

I smiled, interrupting her, I know who to call. After all, it
wouldnt take you long to get there.

Mother smiled, taking my hand as we walked back up the stairs.
Caspian, who had woke up sometime during all this drama, followed
behind us. I was greeted at the top of the stairs by an immediate hug
from Whisper. It was humorous to me, considering she didnt know
all of my failings. In fact, she didnt know that much about me at
all, but she accepted me based on nothing more than the words of
Frank. She smiled at me, gently unwrapping my wrists. I winced as she
touched one of the scars, but I watched in amazement as it started to
heal. So, Frank wasnt the only one with powers in their
relationship. I winced once more as she moved on to the other wrist.

She then bowed her head to me, Ales, I am not going to let you
suffer that pain; however, I left scars that will take your body
years to fully heal. Scars are not always a bad thing, Ales. They
remind us of our failings, yes. But, they also remind us of life
lessons and teach us how to be stronger. Dont be ashamed of your
scars. They do not define you. You define them.

I sighed, knowing that what she said was true. I hugged her, Thanks,
Whisper.

She merely smiled, grabbing me by the hand and taking me to her car.
She proudly unlocked the doors to her 1972 baby-blue chevelle. I
smiled sitting in the passenger seat as she drove down the highway,
Whisper, I thought my mother was coming.

She shrugged, Im kidnapping you. I asked her not to come. Its
simple. Ales, you need some girl-talk without your mother around. You
need to let your feelings out. Im someone who knows you, but
doesnt. Therefore, I wont judge you. Also, I want what we wear
to the Christmas party to be a surprise!

I smiled, I appreciate it, Whisper.

She simply turned down the radio, Whats bugging you, Ales?

I brought my knees to my chest, I guess I just hate how I feel.
Every time I think about Caspianhis muscular body, his caring
smile, his sexy Spanish accent as he whispers that everything will be
okay, it sent shivers down my spine. I hate that every time I think
about him so intimately thoughts of Isaac come creeping in. I can
practically feel myself being held down, screaming for mercy. I can
feel that pain, and then I feel so alone like no one can hear me at
all. I dont want to remember being molested as a child, but I
dont want to forget. It made me weak, but its made me strong.
If it wasnt for the way everything happened, I never would have
met Caspian. Thats something I will never regret. I only regret my
fear of love and commitment.

Whisper nodded, Babe, youre perfectly normal. Everyone has a
fear of love and commitment. We all fear getting hurt. I get
uncomfortable around Frank, but then again we just like cuddling.
Still with you, youre probably going to be uncomfortable, and
thats okay. Caspian will understand. Trust me. When you are both
married, nothing in the past will matter.

I laughed, If we last that long.

Whisper smiled, I have a good feeling about the two of you. Well,
now that we are at the mall. Lets look for something my will make
Caspian and Frank squirm and feel like kids in a candy store before a
trip to the dentist.

Kids in a candy store before a trip to the dentist? I
questioned her with the you-cant-be-serious tone.

She nodded childishly, Exactly, they can look all they want, but
they cant touch because they might not be able to stop.

I laughed as she pulled me into a dress store. She smiled, Okay,
we need something that is low cut, tight, and form fitting.thats
it.

She ran towards the dressing rooms, dragging me along. I sat in
silence as she tried on her outfit. It was gorgeous. It was a
red-wine color, strapless. It fell so gracefully to the floor, a slip
coming up the right side to her hip. The sequins caused it to glitter
in the sunlight, kind of like Caspian. The only problem was the fact
that it was a little loose. Whisper merely smiled, in a few seconds
it fit perfectly, I get it from my dad. Hes a shape-shifter.
You know Jonn, right?

I nodded, Yeah, I do. Youre Zatannas daughter?

Whisper smiled, I was wondering when youd catch on. Im the
ultimate magical shape-shifteractually, I think Im the only
one. I dont think we met when we were kids. I am a year younger
than you. I met your family once, and you were at Themiscrya. The
point is that we are friends now.

She laughed. It was so whimsical. Whisper was like a pixieso full
of life, love, and wonder. She stayed in that store with me for
hours, looking for a dress. She wouldnt leave until I found
something that made me happy. Thats when I found it: the dress of
my dreams. It was divine. Stylish and off-the-shoulder, with an
asymmetrical gathered hem, this lavender dress that faded to pink at
the bottom made me feel like a princess, and considering I am one
that wasnt a bad thing. Whisper gasped, Darling, you look
amazing. All you need is a tiara and a prince charming.

I smirked, Ive got at least five of those at home.the tiaras
that is.

Whisper winked at me, Youve got one Caspian, and thats a
good catch.

I only rolled my eyes as she insisted on buying the dresses. I
agreed, but only if I bought our shoes. We spent a great amount of
time in the shoe store. Whisper didnt have a hard time picking out
a pair of strappy red heals. Considering she was 54, and Frank
was 64, three inch heals werent a problem.

Ales, you cant wear three inch heels. You are 511 and
Caspian is what around 65? It wont work. You need two inch
heels, She stomped her foot like a child would if they were
throwing a tantrum.

Yes, mother, I rolled my eyes, my voice dripping with sarcasm.

She laughed, making her way back to the car with the bags. Upon
placing them in the trunk, she got in the car, and turned to me,
Have you tried talking to him?”

I groaned, “No, I hate seeing him upset. If he cries, then I
wouldn’t be able to hold anything in, and I’ll start blubbering like
a baby in his arms. I don’t want to show him that side of me. I
really don’t want anyone to see me like that.”

Whisper shook her head. “Youve got to let someone see it, why
not someone who loves you?”

I looked out the window at the passing cars, I don’t want him to
think less of me. I mean it’s hard enough having him know things
about me. I mean you know what happened, but you don’t know every
detail. He does. I hate this. I can’t think about him without
thinking back. I want to show him so much, but I don’t know how he
would react to me being so….helpless.”

Whisper rolled her eyes. “I hate to say it like this, but you
need to learn that not everyone is like that. Caspian knows you, but
he hasnt left youthink about that.

Whisper smiled, turning up the radio. She had it set on a classical
music station. She softly sang along to O, Fortuna. I was
thankful that she left me to my thoughts. It was a peaceful car ride.
I felt so calm when I thought about someone loving me even though I
was used goods, You want to know something funny, Whisper?

She turned her green eyes flashing with curiosity, I think its
hilarious that you like classical music and Frank likes rap.

She chuckled at the odd combination as we pulled into the driveway. I
hadnt even realized how much time had passed. It felt like we had
only been in the car a few minutes. I laughed, walking into my room
to change before the party. I jumped when I opened the door, coming
face to face with my grandmother, Hippolytaumyour highness,
to what do I owe this great honor?

Hippolyta moved gracefully across the room, her long white toga
moving with her. She embraced me, No formalities, Alessandra. I
came to see my only granddaughter. You certainly have matured into a
beautiful young lady just like your mother. I see you are getting
ready. I could help you if you like that?

I
smiled walking in the bathroom to change. I didnt want her to see
my scars. I walked back out in my dress, Id love it if you did
my hair!

I
felt like a child again. I used to be the little starlight that sat
on her lap. She picked up my curling iron. She carefully pinned part
of my hair in a bun, allowing the rest to cascade down to my
shoulders, the tips of my hair slightly curled, Alessandra, you
look so beautiful. And, that Caspian of yours is such a fine young
man. Men like him honestly make me rethink our Amazonian ways.

I
smiled, spinning around in front of the mirror. My dress flowed with
my movements. I actually felt regal, Yeah, Caspian is an amazing
man. And, Hippolyta, I dont look that pretty.

She
gently placed her hands on my shoulders, You look gorgeousso
tall and proud. You are truly royalty. Alessandra, you are humble,
strong, determined, and committed. I am proud to have you as my
successor since your mother would much rather be our champion than
our one-day queen.

I
bit my lip, shaking my head as I walked across the wood floor to the
alcove. I stared out the window at the rose garden. My parents
happily walked together hand in hand. I remembered when they used to
take me for walks in the rain. I smiled at the memory.

I
ran along in front of them in bright red boots, a yellow rain-coat,
and matching hat. I proudly carried my Hello Kitty umbrella. I
smiled, jumping from puddle to puddle. My mother smiled at me as my
father laughed in joy and happiness. I skipped along the cobblestone
path, spotting some ducks playing by the garden pond.

Duckie,
I screamed, running to join them in their rain time play.

Be
careful, Alessandra, you dont want to slip in the rain, my
mother followed after me, trying to get me to slow down.

I
cried as I fell into a puddle. My knee was bleeding, and I was
covered in mud, Mommy, can you help me up please.

She
smiled, kneeling down beside me, Try to get up yourself, Ales.
Sometimes we have to learn when we fall. We have to learn to pick
ourselves up.

I
stood up, my lower lip quivering due to the pain of my scrapped knee,
But, you never fall, Mommy. You Wanna Woman.

She
picked me up, holding me tightly as my father shielded us with his
umbrella, I fall a lot, Ales. Most people dont notice though.
Being strong isnt about never falling down. Its about getting
up every time you fall and never being afraid to stand up for
yourself. Youre a very brave girl, Ales. You stood up all by
yourself.

Alessandra,
are you okay?

I
shook my head as Hippolytas voice broke me from my daze, Yeah,
Im fine. Its just. Im not as strong and capable as you
think. Most people dont notice though because I stand up every
time I fall.

Hippolyta
smiled, I always told your mother that. Alessandra, I know
something happened to you, and I know that you are trying to hide it.
So, I never pried, but if you ever want to talk, know that Im
right here. Im not going to judge you. No matter what happened,
you are a strong and capable woman. You show strength in weakness and
humility when others would be prideful. Now, you should go. Caspian
will be waiting for you.

I
hugged her. It was odd, but that was exactly what I wanted: someone
who knew nothing about my past, but accepted me, Thank you. Know
that I will tell you one day.

She
shook her head, You dont have to.Oh, I forgot. I brought you
something.

She
reached into a satchel that had been sitting on the bed, pulling out
the most gorgeous tiara I had ever seen. It seemed so small and
fragile, gleaming in the light. It was a breathtaking piece. In the
center was a heart in silver settingdelicate, made with sparkling
diamonds. She gently placed the tiara on my head. It was curved
perfectly. It feltsoso right, Its so perfect,
Alessandra.

For
the first time in so long, I felt proud of who I was, That would
be Princess Martha Victoria Alessandra Connor Wayne granddaughter of
Queen Hippolyta and heir apparent to the thrown.